I don’t think that you ever imagined how much pain I would be in once you were gone, Because if you had; you wouldn’t have left us. Words cannot express the amount of emotions that have come with trying to let you go. Every day has been a struggle. Its been a year and its still hard for me to grasp that your really gone. Sometimes, still, I don’t know what to do with myself. There have been days that I haven’t wanted to get out of bed, And days that if I allowed myself, I could cry and cry and cry. A year later and I still sit and stare at your pictures, Sometimes I sleep with them by my side. I miss your voice. I miss your smile, Your eyes, your touch Your smell, your phone calls And you just being around.